The Rush (The Siren Series) by Rachel Higginson

It starts out all weird. I was completely confused at what this was. And then at the end of the first chapter, the main character, Ivy, said how it was her job to leave boys and that was when I was hooked. It wasn't the title or anything like that. No, it was those two sentences. And I was a goner. 

So, I'm at chapter three and I learned in the last two chapters that she had a trust fund. So apparently, when Ivy hit puberty she had to give up any junk food that couldn't go into those snack bags of 100 calories. Ivy then remarked, "I decided my very first purchase with my trust fund would be a candy bar. Okay, probably it would be a plane ticket, but then definitely a candy bar. Maybe two. I'm awesome at dreaming big." And I just quoted that. And I just fell a little more in love with this book because of that quote. It really doesn't take much so it's no surprise, my heart is a player. 

So, I'm through with the book and I quite like it actually. She confessed at around 76% about being a siren. I thought it was different and had a unique feel to it. Turns out Ivy had a little sister she was trying to protect, which I love, and she's also trying to protect her true love, Ryder, by not dating him. And there's all these things against them. I hope in the next book, The Fall, they actually get together and all. 

I'm sorry this is so late. I just finished writing it tonight even though I finished the book the the twenty-fourth. But, when your pet dies you get a few days off.

Rest in peace Buddy. 2009-2014

Effortless With You

I hated the main character. I truly did. In the beginning at least. She just seemed so self-involved. She cared only about her status and, in the beginning of the story, seeks out after being grounded, gets caught and is forced into a summer job. This chick has thinks she has the right, the right, to blame her mother for something out of her control. She questions everything around, except for her "best friend," who isn't really her friend. This "best friend" is making out with our main characters boyfriend. And I hated the best friend, she was just so selfish and ugly and ugh, I wanted to stab myself.
Anyways, the main character had played basketball during her freshman or sophomore year. But like all things, it came to an end. She was the star player, made the winning shots and had her face in the newspaper. Everyone seemed to tolerate her. Until they abused her, which caused her to quit.
It's a well written novel, in my opinion, and I liked it in the end. But I almost put it down halfway through but I kept chugging on. You see the character grow. It's not an instant change, an over night change. It's throughout the course of the summer and that's why I bought it and one of the few reasons I liked it. She didn't just do a 360 turn. No, it was a slow, easy going turn. And I loved that. I didn't feel like the author was trying to rush anything, in all honesty I hated how slow it felt at times. It was easy going then fast and then slow. Repeat and rewash throughout book. And I would sometimes get bored. But I like it and that's what counts.

If I Stay

Let me just say that this book is becoming a movie. My mum had bought the book and I remembered her telling me about it and then the trailor came on during a commercial break and I had to read the book because I wanted to see the movie. Now here we are. Three days later.
So this is a story of a girl in high school who is in her last year and has a brother, a mother, and a former rocker-turned middle school teacher dad. The girl is named Mia. This is a story of her memories of the people she loves.
Her rocker boyfriend, Adam.
Her middle school teacher father.
Her stern loving mother.
Her eight or seven year old brother, Teddy.
Mia was in a car accident while going to a family friends house. It was a snowy day in Oregon and the family got hit by a truck. The driver came our clean. Her parents died on impact. Her brother eventually died in a hospital.
This is a story about the heartfelt memories of Mia and her family and boyfriend. She has the happy memories. And with happy memories, she has sad memories. But the memories lead up to one thing.
A decision that Mia needs to make.
Does she want to keep living?
Or will she give in to death?
Will she stay?
Or will she leave?
Will she go on with the support of her friends and cherish the memories of her late family?
Or will the pain be too much?

I think this book puts a new perspective on things. People say that coma patients can hear what you're saying. This is a book off of that belief. Mia is taking in the reactions of her friends in a ghostly form. She takes it all in and has to decide on her own fate. This is all in her hands.

I liked this story. I cried in the end because it seems unfair that so many people have to die and if this is what they went through to make their decision. That's not to say that she dies. Or that she lives. If you want to figure that out you need to read the book.

I will tell you that Adam, Mia's boyfriend, has a story of what he experienced. Afted you read If I Stay, that is if you read it, you can read Adam's story, Where She Went. It is a happy ending.

Paranormal Public

Have you ever had that feeling that your heart was being torn in half? If you haven't experienced it, the only way I can explain it is that your heart is hurting and yearning for something or someone, I guess. I don't really know how to explain it.

But that feeling of a heart being torn was what happened to make me stop reading this series.

First off, the author, Maddy Edwards, put six more books of the series on Amazon without telling or consulting me. And I thought that the series had ended, but apparently it didn't.

The second reason is the character, Lisabelle. Lisabelle is a dark mage (witch) and is battling the evil and darkness within her. Lisabelle's friends, Charlotte (main character and only known Elemental) and Sip (short for Sip-something and is a tiny werewolf with purple eyes), are keeping her, Lisabelle, tied to the ground, you could say.

Lisabelle, to me, represents hope. Hope that even in the thickest part of the woods, I can make a clear path to the Meadow of Relief not to far away. If you know me, you'll know what I have been through and the thoughts that I have had since 2012.

Crash course on Hannah 101: I am bipolar and had been through a tough time after one of my dearest friends left. I was emotionally withdrawn and wouldn't sleep or eat. Then one day I was happy and I thought that was it. Then I was sad. It happened again and so I searched it up. I self diagnosed myself with bipolar disorder and had a therapist confrim it later. I was on a medication I didn't like, so I suffered through withdrawals. Even though it was painful, it was worth it in the end for me because of that floaty feeling I get on a high. I had dark thoughts and then I read about Lisabelle and how she was fighting against the darkness inside her and it just gave me hope. If she could do, so could I, right?

I became attached, in a way, to Lisabelle. And then the author had Lisabelle give in to darkness and I completely lost all hope. Thankfully, I had friends to help puck up the pieces for me and put me back together while I stood there in shock. But that's not the point.

The point is that, this author had Lisabelle give in. I knew it would happen, but I had hoped it wouldn't.

It wasn't the fact that Keller and Charlotte broke up, or because of all the hell hounds and demons. It wasn't because Sip was kidnapped. It was because Lisabelle gave in. That sounds weird, I know. But no one saw the happiness I got and the hope I had when Lisabelle was on the good side.

It was a good series, it was. But I just couldn't finish the last two books. The only other thing (besides Lisabelle) that made me want to stop is the length. I know some series are that long and I applaud those that stick through to the end. But for me it was too long. I think it was all the drama. Nine books. That means lots of drama. And life has so much drama and no happy ending and that's why I go to books. Because while they have drama, they usually have happy endings. And I need those happy endings because life doesn't always have a happy ending because people have things happen to them and they can't go forward. So books need happy endings!

If you can commit to a series this long, go for it! Don't let my crappy, depressing review stop ya!

The Iron Butterfly

So this is going to be one post that I wrote throughout the whole book so that I dont forget anything.
So far, I have found at least two or three weird punctuation mistakes. The first was " 'hadn't " which I thought was weurd because, hey, how would you accidentally put an apostrosphe before the correct spelling of the word? I think the author is putting apostrophes before contractions, which to me seems weird. And then there was an underscore at the beginning of a sentence instead of a space. ???
And for right now, mind you I am only 14% through the book, I think the books good. The girl just broke out of prison with the help of her two inmates. So, it seems pretty cool so far and I'm anxious to see how this all plays out...
38%: I'm getting the feeling that this book might just be a love triangle. There's these two boys so far, Kael and Joss. Kael is the one that broke her out of the prison thing and the first handsome guy she's seen ajnce imprisonment. Then there's Joss. *weary sigh* Joss is one of the two guys that saved her and he feels like Thalia (I don't think I mentioned the chicks name yet) is his responsibility since he saved her and blah, but Thalia has a crush on him and gets jealous when pretty girls are around him. Ugh! This is turning out to be a love triangle... And Thalia is attacked by a wild bunch of dogs, where you will see Kael and how he saves her and runs when he hears someone coming. Dundunduuuuuunnnnn...
78%: (spoiler) Thalia realizes that Kael is shit! Whoo-ho! All it took was him saying he wished he had left her for dead. But yay! I'm such a freak...
89%: I hate Kael and might just kill him in my mind before the books done. Goodnews, the main character got her powers! Yay! I need help...

I have now finished the book... I didn't really expect that ending... It was truly beautiful. Bravo! Bravo! It only took me 12 hours and 2 hours of intense pain in my lower abdomen to finish it!

I didn't think I would actually like this book. And for some reason, I was actually...sad...when Kael left. And then I was angry when Joss kisses Thalia. I have some serious issues.

But the book was rather pleasent and I might read on in this series.

The book pattern (so far) is:

The Iron Butterfly

The Steele Wolf

The Silver Siren

Breathing

I think I'm a literature whore. Or maybe I am a literature slut? I don't know why but I gravitate towards things with words. I have writen poetry and reviews and essays and reviews and I swear-I SWEAR-I am writing 8 different books at once.

Currently my new interest is one called Breathing. It's about a girl, 17 year old Carla Langley, who's best friend drowned near her. Carla has lost all faith in humanity and feels like her best friend, Keilsy's, death is her fault. And so she meets these twins, Ryley-she has 4 years left to live because of lung cancer-and her brother, Nolan-who's gay amd is picked on but still remains happy and optimistic about life. They show her that her life didn't end with Keilsy and that she should just keep breathing.

And there we go. Literature slut, right here! So far this is one of the longest I've written with almost five chapters and already an epilogue (don't ask questions. These things just come to me for some reason). So far I'm optimistic about this one. Also this one speaks out in the cluttered of my minds thoughts.

So far I have 2 people reading it as I go along and giving me feedback. Go Hannah! Maybe I might actually finish this one. *gasp* Hehe. I'm crazy about these things. Don't ask why.

Adversary

Hey, look at me, following through on my promise like that. I'm so proud of myself. So on with the show...

So Adversary pretty much starts with Maddie having a nightmare and waking up when Drew shot himself. Side note:you should read Minder before reading this post. Some things might just make more sense that way. Drew was coming over to tell Trevor and Maddie that they were going on a mission. They had to get past Greg and Frank's (their team trainers) latest test. They pass. 

So later on in the fourth chapter (I'm so terrible given y'all these details like you might not want to find out by yourself) Maddie is going to check on Trevor because of...something. So Trevor's hands-that's what he calls them-throw Maddie down from where she was up on the loft. She lands wrong and breaks her leg, which is super smooth. Matilda-one of the healers-heals her leg but tell it didn't heal correctly and so she sends Trevor, Grace, Hannah, Zack-a new charm-, Rachel, and Maddie to get a MRI. They sent the new charm because he can naturally block and so the want a head check. 

So they do that shiz and return to an empty Ganzfield. There are dead bodies everywhere from The Sons of Adam people who attacked them. (I finally figured out what happened in Minder. I guess I'll tell ya now. Basically Trevor and Maddie go to town to get some supplies. While Maddie's in the store, Trevor gets captured by The Sons of Adam. Then Grace, Hannah, Rachel, Drew-I think-and Maddie go to rescue Trevor. Trevor was strapped up to a bed and knocked out. So they save him and blah blah blah. Happy ending.) So Rachel seeks out Sean (a spark and her boyfriend) to see if he's dead. He's at his families camp. So they all go and seeing that people are alive and well, they figure out Matilda and her twin, Morris, are missing. Rachel uses her RV powers and they go to the house where the two healers are kept (Matilda and Morris are both healers). They find out Isaiah is there (you learn about him in Minder). 

So Rachel, Cecelia, Sean, Hannah, Drew, Trevor and Maddie go out to rescue Matilda and Morris. There Matilda tells Trevor that Isaiah can charm, RV, and use his original Minder powers. Maddie, ever the hero, decides that no one is safe unless Isaiah is dead. 

So she sneaks in to his house where Isaiah is having this charity thing. Isaiah notices another Minder close by and charms everyone to freeze. Dumbly Maddie doesn't freeze and Isaiah notices. So they both tap into their killer power (only Isaiah and Maddie can kill people through their Minder powers), and they both break each others shields and fry each others Broca area ( you know the one that allows you to speak and shiz). So now Isaiah can't charm anyone and Maddie's speechless, quite literally. And stuff happens and Trevor throws Isaiah out the window and Sean died because he was making sure Trevor was okay. And then Trevor and Maddie (after Maddie  wakes up from a 9 day coma) are in the middle of a trap to kill Isaiah, which doesn't work. And something or another happens and the book ends. 

Bam! 

Ganzfield

So, Ganzfield is a 6 book series so I'm gonna do a different post as I reread all the books. Sadly, I have yet to read the last book. 😢

Any who, the first book is Minder. So this girl, Madeline Dunn (who prefers being called Maddie) is the main character and everything (I believe) is in her POV. Continuing, so Minder starts off with Maddie in the police station. You later find out in the next chapter (if I'm right) that Maddie was walking home from school or some shiz and was captured in a van by some high schoolers from her school. They guys are male and bring her to a deserted parking lot. They then attempt, attempt to rape her. Maddie had her shirt torn down the middle and she was of course freaking out. In Maddie's mind she's mentally screaming "No!" (that was directly quoted from the book. I'm amazing) and all of a sudden she gets this surge of energy and the guy holding her down suddenly goes slack and falls down on top of Maddie. It takes a few minutes for it to kick into her mind that she had killed the three rapist. A few chapters later Maddie's at Ganzfield, a special sanctuary for special kids with extra special powers. So lets review in the next few minutes-or seconds-the shortened version of the people's name,of their power, and what the that power is. 

RV's-so RV stands for Remote View. So RV's can find people and objects, which in my opinion is pretty dang cool. RV's can "see" things that are hidden. This power would be useful for people who always lose things. 

Sparks-Sparks are the people who have pyrokinesis, so you would never need a lighter when around these people. About maybe a quarter of the people in Ganzfield (which holds around 80 people) are sparks. Sparks have this game called Fireball or something like that. Basically they make a ball of fire and toss it from person to person. 

Charms-Charms hold half the population at Ganzfield. Charms can charm people to with their words to do what they want. Most charms are cruel, evil creatures. Most charms also think they are better than everyone else. Minders have a special immunity to charms, making their minds unable to be charmed. Many people also fear charms. 

Healers-Obviously from the name you can tell that healers purposefully harm people. Kidding!! No, healers can heal people. But healers are also very bad in combat because they want to save everyone, even the bad guys. But healers also have an awesome power, they can knock someone out. Basically they make people go nighty-night. 

Then we have Trevor. Trevor is a telekinetic , in fact the only one in the school. Trevor ends up being Maddie's boyfriend. Trevor, because he's telekinetic, he throws things in his sleep. So him and Maddie are the perfect match because they both throw things in their sleep. Maddie throws dreams and nightmare and Trevor grabs objects and throws them. 

So this is really sad, but I can't really remember what the whole entire plot is about. Which is weird since I read this book, again, just a few days ago. I know. Pathetic Hannah. You should be ashamed of yourself. But seriously I have an excuse. I'm moving and packers were at my house all week long. 

So, I'll try to have the next post of this book either later today or in a few days. Lets hope that I actually follow through this time on my promise. 

Ellen Schreiber-Once in a Full Moon

Okay "Once In A Full Moon" screams werewolves. Yes there are werewolves involved. One werewolf from what I can tell. This obviously means I didn't finish the book. Which I didn't. I'm lady enough to admit I didn't finish the dumb book. I got halfway through and I just couldn't do it anymore. I'm a HUGE wimp. So this isn't  gonna be all accurate but whateva. So let us begin. 

So the main character is this chick named Celeste Parker. I guess the main male character is some dude named Brandon (Im such a nit that I forgot his last name and the only way I know Celeste's is because I couldn't figure out what her first name was so I searched it up). 

So the place is Legends Run. So Celeste doesn't believe in the whole werewolf legend going around. This is one of two things I actually like about this character. Yea one of two. The other thing I like is she's not biased about what "side of the tracks" you live in. 

So basically Legends Run is split in two sections. There's the Westside and the Riverside. The Riverside is full of "poor" people who stand by tradition and all that jazz. The Westside is full of stuck up, think-they're-better-than-you people. If you haven't guessed it yet, the Westside is full of rich people. 

So Celeste is in the family of rich people, but apparently she thinks she's "not rich enough". This is one of many, many, many reasons why I hate this character. Brandon (bless his beloved soul) is from Riverside so lot of distrust and crap going on when he moves to Legends Runs High school. 

So after one afternoon of getting your future read, Celeste's dumb friends are late to some practice (Im so terrible. I can't even remember what practice it was) and leave her to walk home alone. Note that Brandon's already in school and that it is in the middle of winter. Like I said, Celeste has dumb friends. So Celeste walks home and gets lost. Which, by the way, is real smooth. So dummy here keeps on walking. So soon enough dummy is surrounded by a pack of bloody wolves. Note again that the wolves aren't really bloodied. 

Soon enough our hero comes in and scares the wolves off but gets bit. 

Next full moon: So during the full moon Celeste is dropping off something (I forgot; I'm so bad) and she stays and the moon is full and-blah blah blah-Brandon and Celeste start kissing (Eww, disgusting. We all saw this coming. You know you saw this coming before you even read what I wrote). Then Brandon transforms into a werewolf thing (yawn. You know, same-old, same-old) and he tells her to leave ( or maybe she runs away) and well next school day Celeste asks Brandon about it and he doesn't remember a thing. 

And that was the point I left of at. I seriously couldn't take it anymore. It was literally ruining my soul. My soul was in actual pain. And it's not the pain you feel when you're mourning someone. No, no. This pain wraps around you and slowly suffocates you until you can't breathe. You can see what's happening but you can't prevent it. Yea, that's the feeling I got from this book. I literally had premature lows after I read something from this book. That's how bad it is. 

Divergent

As promised I have a review. For the whole week I've been trying to figure out which book to review. Then I finished the last book in this series. And I needed to review it. Badly.
The first book, Divergent, was (in my opinion) the best flipin' book in the trilogoy. Why? Because it was fast paced, thrilling, amazing and a whole lot of other words.
The second book, Insurgent, was okay, I guess, but not really as...good as the first book. Why? Because there was a lot of trust issues between Tris and Tobias. My Toby keeps things from Trissy girl, doesn't trust Tris' judgement; says that her jealousy is clouding her judgement. Tris' judgement was correct.
Now I'm gonna drop a bomb on all of y'all. So if you dont want this bomb, leave. Cause Im about to tell you how Alligent ends. Ready? Tris dies. Yep she dies. Goes through this death serem, lives, then shuts down this memory serem that was gonna erase thwarting memories of everyone in the community. Then the leader of this group outside of the community, David, shots her and she dies. Originally, her brother, Caleb, was gonna do this, but even though he was gonna let Trissy girl die, she goes ahead and does it instead. She dies. Im still trying to wrap my head around this information. I can't even look at the bloody book. Because it ruined my dreams. I thought Tris would, I don't know, come back alive. I was crying for hours. I swear to the Chocolate Lord. Even now, I wanna cry.
I give this whole series, as a whole, four and a half stars. Would be five, but nooo Veronica Both had to kill, kill Tris. Dummy needs to rewrite the end part of the book and sell that too. Then label it "Alligent, the nicer version".
Im done now. I'll try, really I will, to get at least 2 reviews out every month. 

This is how Awesome I am!

So I know I haven't wrote in awhile-which makes me feel really guilty-but I have good reasons. First off, it was winter break. Everyone does nothing on winter break. Sadly, that population includes me. Gosh, I really need a life. But any who, there was also Christmas followed by New Year which was then followed by school. :( So not cool. So sorry. So I promise that I will try to get a review out sometime this week, after I find the right book that I'm looking for. And I think I have it, but I'm not sure. But (yes there is a but to my ranting and apologizing) there is another reason I haven't posted another review. I know what you're thinking. That I need some help because there are waaayyy to many reasons for me not to post. But I believe this is a valid one. A very valid one, seeing as how I put this down the summer of '13. I believe... Any ways I need to get back on track. Where was I? Reason. Valid reason. I took back up on writing this one book. I know. I know. Stare at this screen in confusion and caution because I'm a psychopath. But this means a lot to me. It was the first book idea that I ever wrote on paper. Yep, if you live close to me, you can probably hear me screaming with joy and running down the street in a bathing suit, cause I don't do nude. So my first ever baby was at 17 maybe 18 pages when I put it down and suddenly in just a few days of typing I'm not at page 31-yep reread that. Thirty-fudging-one!-and approximately 9,115 words. Yay! Go Hannah! Okay I'm good. Y'all can continue on with your life now. Just don't mind me. You can forget me. Love y'all, even though y'all are probably ignoring and disowning me now.